stay

"well actually you can"
really? no. i cannot. i will not.
i want to, and i know exactly what my answer would be.
but i just don't trust myself enough to let you risk it.
in one dream i see you at my doorstep,
holding that one white rose that you left out.
in my next dream it's not you.
but know that one more week was added to our story.
staying up late just to think of you,
i wanted you so bad,
for just a few days.
i had your entire visit planned out day by day.
i even had it rationalized in my mind,
but it is not okay.
i don't trust my heart enough to let you give up hers.
you could make me happy. you always did.
that is just not enough. i see a weekend adventure,
but you see a lifetime.